a long drag becomes a slow dance in a halo of ember.

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 01:22:55 GMT

"You know you are one of my heroes?
I dont think i've ever told you that.
I look up to you, even though you're younger than me. I wish there was something inside of me that made me a better person.
I love you so much and I always will, You are one of the most trustworthy people I know.
(:
Just thought id tell you."

a myspace message that made my day. I'm proud to call you my friend.

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 00:25:13 GMT

As of yesterday, I have spent three months with the most beautiful boyfriend in the world.

Its always you in my big dreams.

"bring it on, Wilma."

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 05:22:17 GMT

Zach and I went to 7-11 for snacks because it was the only place open. we were the only two in line who weren't purchasing some form of beer.

we came home and my mom made us hurricane spaghetti.

if I didn't have my beautiful boyfriend spending the night with me tonight, Wilma might really scare me.

rent a wreck.

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 19:45:03 GMT

You never knew why you felt so good in the strangest of places. Like in waiting rooms and long lines that made you late, and mall parking lots
on holidays. There are no bad words for the coast today. When we hold our breath until nothing's left, it all starts to fade. We can see the stars from where the birds make their homes, staring back at us. Indifferent but distanced perfectly projected endlessly, it's so fucking beautiful. There are no bad words for the coast today. Then you ask what's a palisade? And if we're too late for happiness?

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 01:55:02 GMT

I have the best times of my life with this person.
I hope this never goes away.

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 02:25:41 GMT

Tara, Zach, and I traveled to a far away place Saturday afternoon. We even got to ride rollercoasters. I don't think there's really anything like riding a rollercoaster with the the hand of the person you love inside yours.

Blasting old Nsync and singing all the words, finding a hidden lime in the bottom of my strawberry limeade, getting off the rollercoaster to see a picture of Zach and I during the ride - Zach looking terribly frightened and me with my hands in the air. I loved every minute of it.

and as of yesterday, I own a cute little car.

zoooom shwartz profiglianooo

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 01:12:44 GMT

Dark showers = Hotness

Kelsey is amazing and I love her more than Tony Danza is The Boss.

My name is Sugarpantz. BIOF.

We rock like the crack in Buddy Jeff's pipe.

the end. eat it.. bitchez.

mmshakalaka.

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 00:38:35 GMT

purple in my hair.

What could you possibly see in me is my soul hung out to dry. I think my dysfunctional family has shaped it throughout my life. What could you possibly like in me? Do you like my ability to bend? I think my fear of intimacy has shaped the time we spend. What could you possibly love in me? Is it the way I wear my smile? It hangs from the tip of my tounge you see. Oh this might take a while.

one month !

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 03:57:25 GMT

It was a straight-faced lie I believed. It was a straight-faced lie that you would ever leave me. So for now I'll keep believing your words, and soon enough my strength will return. I'll take care of you, oh. Have faith that when you call my name, I'll be there. I'll be right there.

So keep breathing on, keep that sweet heart of yours beating. And I'll be there, I'll be right there. Let me draw the blinds for you, you can watch the sunset from the bed in your hospital room, until you're sleeping.

And I'm sure that I don't understand how I found a love so pure.

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 23:51:15 GMT

If someone would have asked me a month ago how I imagined my life on September 8th, 2005, I would have predicted all the wrong things.

my life is more beautiful than it has ever been. I believe that my two best friends are the most amazing male and female on the planet. I really do.

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 22:27:54 GMT

if I didn't already know how beautiful my boyfriend and I are before this weekend, I know now.

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 23:03:20 GMT

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.

1.~How did you meet ten_excuses? school I believe.
2.~What would you do if you had never met _melmel? I wouldn't have ever eaten fried chicken at 2 in the morning.
3.~What do you honestly think of you_and_i_? I think I'm losing her.
4.~Would or did he_eats_faces and justfallapart go out? That might be interesting.
5.~Have you ever liked poemtothedead? I've liked him more than anyone has!
6.~If ezbreezy died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? that I wish I got to see her lovely face more.
7.~Would alayrustikay and mynameisdanger make a good couple? Oh lord no!
8.~Describe myhearthisgun in 3 words: beautiful, irritable, silly.
9.~Do you think jiggacecil is hot? way hot.
10.~Would ezbreezy and devilsconduit make a lovely couple? Not at all.
11.~What do you think of when you see justfallapart? Laughter...and Charlie. :)
12.~Tell me something humiliating about mynameisdanger: he loves penis.
13.~Do you know any of thatssoyou's family members? I met her dad once.
14.~What's _melmel's favorite color? Melanie, this is why we need to hang out more.
15.~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is sexual_shannon? 82.
16.~What would you do if its_your_girl just professed their undying love for you? Ask for her car.
17.~What language does he_eats_faces speak? Lies.
18.~Who is unknowntragedy going out with? Leron, are you dating anyone?
19.~Is evilp0ptart a boy or a girl? A pretty pretty girl.
20.~Would michaelclass and its_your_girl make a good couple? Not so much.
21.~Who do you think _melmel would be great with from this list? Thatssoyou. !
22.~When was the last time you talked to jiggacecil? Ages ago.
23.~What is poemtothedead's favorite band? Underoath!
24.~Does alayrustikay have any siblings? Ashley. and a 27 year old brotha.
25.~Would you ever date thatssoyou? Girl?
26.~Would you ever date myhearthisgun? Another girl. I'm taken anyway.
27.~Is _melmel single? As far as I know!
28.~What is _melmel's last name? PAGAN!!!!
29.~What is michaelclass's middle name? Noooo idea. :x
30~What is you_and_i_'s fantasy? Making out with me.
31.~Where does evilp0ptart live? In the cape!
32.~Would you make out with ten_excuses? What do you say, Ali? (ha, ha)
33.~Are _melmel and thatssoyou best friends? Actually, yes!
34.~Does myhearthisgun like _melmel? They aren't aquainted.
35.~How did you meet michaelclass? Though kitty kat.
36.~Is jiggacecil older than you? Much older.
37.~Is devilsconduit the sexiest person alive? He might be the second.

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 03:31:55 GMT

tonight,zach and I played around with fake fruit and drew marker mustaches.

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 03:52:20 GMT

boyfriend!!!

remember this?

things are changing, and I like it.

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 03:18:33 GMT

yesterday, something unexpected happened. I'm still in shock.
and you're wonderful.

In Other News:

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 03:33:24 GMT

Shane just fought six tigers & killed
them all in a duel for my honor.

He rules.

xo

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 16:17:49 GMT

I love her more than she knows. !

today is jam packed!
its the last night of summer. so I'm going to make the best of it.

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 05:46:58 GMT

I'm unhappy with the way that I handle my unhappiness. I need to learn to take things for what they are. I need to stop questioning my own feelings and the feelings of others, and over estimating what I'm capable of fixing.

I needed today.
today, I sang so hard that my non tonsils hurt. and it was the best I've felt in a week. and knowing that tomorrow, I will be riding on waterslides tomorrow is the second most wonderful thing about today.

and the third. well, the third all has to do with a can of potato soup.

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 20:37:58 GMT

nausea! sore throat! diet consisting of beef broth!

well aren't my post-tonsilectomy days treating me well.

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 05:37:57 GMT

the good news is, I'm home. the bad news is, no hairball for me. my doctor insists that I miss it.

I got off the plane to 3 text messages and a voicemail. none of these people returned my calls. what a night.

oh, and I'm incapable of sleep.

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 03:22:16 GMT

this ended up being saved on my computer. it will only mean something to one person.

mm. today consisted of ice cream, television, and antibiotics.
my tonsils are going to be removed, and soon. they belong in a jar.

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 22:56:17 GMT

I already updated today.

But I feel the need to announce publicly that I have a lot of love right now.

and I could write a song a hundred miles long. Well that’s where I belong and you belong with me. and I could write it down or spread it all around, get lost and then get found or swallowed in the sea. You put me on a line and hung me out to dry, darling that’s when I decided to go to see you. You cut me down to size and opened up my eyes., made me realize what I could not see. and I could write a book, the one they'll say that shook the world. and then it took, it took it back from me. Oh, the streets you’re walking on a thousand houses long. Well that’s where I belong and you belong with me. Not swallowed in the sea.

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 19:53:58 GMT

I'm starving and I can't find any food.
I think this may be symbolic.

My father and I were watching a show called "Inside the Mind of a Serial Killer" on the E channel. And, as it turns out, he used to know a famous serial killer back in college. I wonder if anyone I know will ever become a serial killer.

this could be love.

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 01:32:24 GMT

I got my hand stuck in flypaper today. For those of you who don't know, flypaper is really a piece of sticky cardboard that catches flies and renders them immobile. I've washed my hands six times and the back of my hand still feels like glue.

someone accompany me to busch gardens and ride rollercoasters with me when I return!

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 00:07:05 GMT

I'm homesick already.
I think this champagne may be the cure.

cheers to that.